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Dead days are turning into restless nights

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If we were having coffee this morning, I would tell you how I have been doing nothing for the several previous months. How I am really frustrated by this fact and furious at myself. It’s a long monotonous setback that is getting profound every morning and violent everyday; you open your eyes in bed in the morning and you realize nothing is going to happen today, you are going to get up, wash your face, and talk to yourself in the mirror about the things you wish and never get, about the things you like and never do, about the thing you’ve become, and the things you would never be.

If we were having coffee this morning, I would tell you how my nights are turning into days, and days are becoming nights, as if I am living in a realm beyond the realm of humans, hunting movies and series on my computer screen at night and sleeping more than cats in daylight. Yes, Things have been upside down for a while now, dead days are bleeding into restless nights, trying to find an ultimate escape into the virtual world of the Internet, video games, movies, and fiction; shutting down my thoughts and inner conscience from surfacing, and filling my brain cells with unlimited supply of pixels to maintain a state of numbness and unawareness.

If we were having coffee this morning, I would tell you that I am running out of steam, even the slightest simple pleasures of eating, drinking or having a cigarette are growing tedious. Unable to concentrate or focus on a simple task. I know that there is nothing that stops you from finding yourself, except yourself and that’s what is irritating me even more, because, somehow I am aware that I am sucked into self-destruction. But, at the same time I feel trapped, as if someone is trying to get out from moving sand. The more you lament, or go tough on yourself to take a stand, and find your way out, the deeper you sink into a larger vacuum. A dimension that is twice away from finding yourself, and thrice away from getting back your self-esteem and motivation.

If we were having coffee, I would say thank your  for your time and listening . I know we have just meet and I am already bothering with this much talk. So, tell me how was your week? And how  are you doing ?

Another Morning post

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The cold mystic air of the early morning has made its way through the broken window and into my room. It is another summer day, when you stay up all night long waiting to witness the start of the next day. Another early breaking dusk, and you are the only  ear-witness for the first skulking little birds that sing the beginning of another day and the end of a short summer night, the first morning fresh and wet breath that chills your body and frosts your lungs.

Soon, the singing is tuned louder and louder, the dusk into faint rays of light and the sleeping town starts to awake. The echoed engines noise crossing the main road of the town is getting louder, the streets are no longer deserted, I start to hear some fading smiles and greetings, and I hear people opening their little shops and small businesses.

Faint rays are turning into strong twilight that have made some lonely clouds look clearer and the blue open sky more transparent. Suddenly, I lose my interest, I sit to write what I thought to be a good introduction for another morning post.But, the importance of the activity has to mitigate when I felt tired. Tired from my long night of insomnia and lack of sleep.

Educate For Jobs

Yesterday when our teacher was giving back our grades and the exam sheets She said ” if you are learning something, you should learn it for the rest of your life. And not learn to just sit for an exam”. Honestly, I understand why she said so, because, she asked a question that was included in the exam. However, the whole class remained silent and no one could answer her ,no one seemed to even remember the questions that were in the exam.

After a few jokes from the teacher about how we are having a fish memory that only lasts for few seconds. And how we are becoming more and more mind-absent this days. We answered her question and corrected the exam. The thing here is that we are becoming more interested in exams and grades, than learning or any other thing . This is a fact that neither my classmates or I can deny. Here, I am in no position to say with any confidence why we are unlikely to take any interest in learning, but, I see good reasons why we do so. Before I start stating the obvious reasons. I would like first to define learning the way I see it.

what I mean by learning is this very long process that we have to endure from the moment where we turn to be six years old and start school. At that time we have no clue about life or what we are going to be in the future. However, by and by when we get to college and we are likely to meet with the market and employment. It’s true that we have to be competent, skillful, and original. Whereas, we need also to have a degree that will guarantee a job in the first place.

When I was in primary and high school I used to learn for the sake of learning. I used to learn because I liked what I am learning, I used to learn because I had no reservations about the future. I used to have no reasons to think about employment or jobs. Maybe I had a dream job that was my main motive for education, for learning,  and for knowledge.

Today this old motivation has to mitigate by the reality that we come to face. when I know that there is about one million unemployed person that half of them have their high degrees, but, they have been unemployed for 3 years or more. When I know that there is about a four hundred thousand undergraduates and post-graduates where 80 thousand of them are most likely to face unemployment the next year of graduation, such a motivation have to fade away sooner or latter. When I know that I have been tricked to choose a branch that does not employ, but only in the public sector. I have to admit that I am no more interested in learning, more than I am interested in getting a job when I graduate.

When families have to pay for their children’s education and then keep paying and paying without getting something in return, without knowing that their son or daughter are likely to get a job at the end of the tunnel and to have a better future than their families had. I totally see my teacher’s view, however, I am convinced now than before that grades are what will get me to have a degree and a job, even if I know that I won’t be very knowledgeable or less cultivated.